After an elderly woman with cerebral hemorrhage was discharged from the hospital, her four children refused to care for her, and the next day she drank pesticide.

Ten years of life and death, both vast and vague. In the blink of an eye, her husband had been gone from her for decades. For more than ten years, whenever she recalled her husband, what remained deepest in her memory was always Acai's pain.

Acai spent both her childhood and adolescence in chaos. After things settled down, she had just given birth to a brood of children when she encountered years of turmoil and poverty. What tormented her most was that Acai's husband left when their youngest son was 4 years old, leaving Acai with endless longing and the pressure of life.

She was short in stature, with thin shoulders and a round waist. Working in the fields, she endured much hardship but earned little money.

By day she labored outside; at night when she returned home, she still had to make clothes for the children by the dim light of an oil lamp. Buying them outside was truly unaffordable. Her short, thick fingers threaded the needle and pulled the thread, and in no time a beautiful new garment was finished.

Two,

For Acai, no matter how hard work was, she was not afraid. What left her most at a loss was how to educate her four children. Because she had to be both mother and father, she feared that without fatherly love, the children's growth would be flawed.

In their daily life, the family always favored the youngest son, because he was young and had received little fatherly love. When he was little, his eldest brother made him many toys with his own craftsmanship.

Although they reached school age, both the eldest brother and the second sister could only finish junior high school before dropping out. Having her children complete junior high school had already turned Acai's hair white. Every weekend afternoon, the child would press his face against the window in loneliness, enviously watching the other companions return to school.

The heavy burden pressed Acai so hard she could barely breathe. This nobody with no connections could only sell her physical labor even more desperately. She found a job on Hanzheng Street transporting goods, pulling loads for others with a tricycle every day.

Three,

Her children began to go out to work and gradually married and started families. Acai grew old, and as a nobody she was destined for her unfortunate fate. She no longer sought great wealth or high status, but what tormented her most was Acai's illness.

She always had headaches, and also high blood pressure, and could not be agitated. When the illness first began, she could still endure it, and the pain would pass after a while. Later, the pain lasted longer and longer, and became more and more severe. Sometimes Acai sat on a small stool, feeling very unwell, but aside from taking some medicine herself, no one could help share her pain.

The river of time carried away too many past events, yet these fragments about Acai's pain settled forever, as if these pains made up the second half of her life. Rising at sunrise and resting at sunset was the whole life of every farmer, and these illnesses made her slightly different from others.

Four,

"The tree may wish to be still, but the wind will not cease; the child may wish to care for the parent, but the parent will not wait." Acai toiled bitterly in the first half of her life, and in the second half she was plagued by illness and could not find peace. As her children, they could not even understand her, let alone speak of repaying her.

Acai was sent to the hospital because of a cerebral hemorrhage. The doctor said it was caused by the rupture of a small tumor in her brain, but because she was already old and her body would not be able to withstand it, she could only receive conservative treatment. After some time in the hospital, Acai was discharged and returned home.

Walking had already become a huge problem for her, and she could not take care of herself, so she could only seek help from her children. After the 4 children took turns caring for her for one month, none of them was willing to look after their mother anymore.

Acai knew her life had reached its end. On the second day after her youngest son returned home, she drank pesticide.